If you’re looking for sympathetic realism, it’s important that it not be judgmental to whatever side is having the Suicidal Thinky Times. I may not know the right way to handle this sort…
I just wanted to put your worries at ease, to a degree, I suppose? The main character is actually the one having these feelings, and I want her portrayed as someone who is goin’ through some specific problems in her life… plus, you know, someone who has depression, which is a whole different beast. But she is mainly smart, and deeply thoughtful, and can be very funny when she wants to be - she’s opinionated, and if you get her on a topic that she is interested in, she can ramble forever and call up a ton of facts and trivia. If it makes sense to say, I want to portray her as a person separate of her condition, because depression does not define someone - it’s something that you live with, but it is definitely not a personality trait. I don’t want her to be sympathetic purely because of her condition, I want her to be sympathetic because she is a normal person with a malady that is too-often treated as something that people can flutter away with some Hallmark sentiment. “Hey, chin up, sport!” “Happiness is what you make it!” “Everyone feels that way, sometimes.” And it’s like, no, no, NO. WRONG WORDS for WRONG ISSUE!
I am starting to consider making an actual blog to put my thoughts down for Vanished, because GEEZ THERE ARE A LOT OF THOUGHTS and I don’t wanna be spammin’ up my main blog with all these disjointed words, haha, BUT I APPRECIATE YOUR FEEDBACK and wanted to say something, since I think what you are saying is very valid. I definitely don’t want to fall into that trap, where I try to brush the severity under the rug and make it out like one day it’s all just gonna be, as you said, puppies and rainbows.